Love Box

Now if spatial limitations were put aside,

and if had a beautiful box,

worthy enough for its contents,

i would fill it with my love.

If I had a box I would fill it with my love,

and you the receiver,

would have to put at least

multiple

rubber bands to keep it closed.

And while we're hypothetical,

there must be no surprise in the variety enclosed.

For not only are there notes and pictures and letters,

but there are

sighs of relief

and

gasps of wonder

and

tears of joy

and all these things will be about the love.

There will be

soft exhales

and

scented perfume

and the cups of tea we shared.

I have yet to measure these,

but it should go without saying that they fit.

They fit with my embrace

and rosy cheeks

and throw blankets.

OH

and I'm also going to put words in there

but I won't write them down because they'll have more of an impact

if they just explode out of the box and hover

They are:

socks,cliffs,sand,carpets,highways

to name a few.

Not to mention the cliché

kisses

that you will feel.

If I had a box

I would fill it with my love

and me, the sender,

would fill it to the brim

with everything to sustain anything

Good Place

1. Classes.

I'm really enjoying all of them (one is a bit boring, I'll admit)

Collage and Mixed Media, International Security and Peace, Relgious Quest, Indigenous Politics of Latin America, Black and Green: Race and Environmental Justice.

Religious Quest: this class compares Christianity, Judaism, and Buddhism. I've never been one for religion, which is why I put off the theology requirement so long. The good news is I think I took it at the perfect time in my life, and I'm getting really into Buddhism. It's a belief system I relate to. I feel like I really understand what it's getting at without having studied it at great length. I've been trying to meditate on my own, and it really makes me feel relaxed and at peace. I still can't block out thoughts, but I like the down time it gives me.

2. Apartment.

Living with Colin, Brittany, Ali, and Elizabeth...and I like that we all came back from studying in a different country. One think I especially like that we're doing is a meal system.

Every night, Sunday through Thursday, a different person makes dinner. And it has been working marvelously because then each person spends time making their dinner for the week. We save so much money doing it, and I feel we are eating really healthy food (or at least healthier than most people of campus). We want to take a picture before each meal to make a 1911 cookbook of sorts. Last Thursday I made chicken terriyaki with veggies, apples, and rice.

3. Work.

The exciting news is that I just got a job today! Until now I was just working one shift at Addies and have been feeling a bit bored of it (the free customized pizza is fantastic, but I've been working there since freshman year). So today I got a call back from this place called Moogies which is a restaurant about ten minutes from where I live. It'll be perfect because I have all my Wednesdays and Fridays free, and I can work on the weekends.

It just makes me feel more in balance to know that these things are going well. Every once in a while I feel overwhelmed by time and things going on in my daily life, but I feel like I have all the factors to be in a good place.

I could go into more detail, but it's a bit intimidating that this post can show up on someone's compy's newsfeed instantly.

I mean I'm kidding, but really.

love.love.love.

OH AND WE HAD A GREAT 90s PARTY i was miss britney spears and tried to be flirty but its not in my nature

Technology

Technology is alienating me. I'm almost positive of it.

I have been thinking about how I have a Mac (which I find superior to other computers) but how I really don't use it for much beyong the usual e-mail, facebook, blogs, class assignments, pictures.

That seems like such a long list of things, but then I see someone else in front of a computer and I watch the way people find information in a fraction of a second. Beyond key board shortcuts, I'm talking about downloading and jumping from profile to profile and opening random blogs in new tabs and finding news stories and multi tasking upon multi tasking upon multitasking.

But instead of feeling intrigued or inspired, I just feel very unsettled.

1. One because I don't know how to do most of that so I wonder if I just am not getting my money's worth out of my computer, or technology.

2. Two because I don't want to feel like I need any of that.

3. Three because technology really seems to bother me more and more each day.

I've been trying to figure out if I've always felt this way, or what has recently triggered this. I have been reflecting on some hypotheses:

1. One is that in Argentina I did not use nearly this much technology. And maybe for 8 months I was in this no-new-technology phase where I wasn't exposed to any new products beyond what I already had. My phone was very simple, pay as you go, hope that your messages go through, keep it brief. I of course used my computer to skype pretty often, but I never felt like I had anything scheduled out. Though I used facebook to keep in touch with people, I also felt like we were all kind of doing our own thing.

2. Two is that my generation has seen ridiculous(ly new) advances in technology. I remember typing programs in fifth grade when it took me two weeks of computer class to type out an instructional paragraph on making peanut butter and jelly. I think I kept up with all of these advances pretty well until about a year or two ago. And I think at this point I stopped trying to keep up (or forgot to keep up) and it's not until NOW that I feel like everyone has kept up but me.

Either way, I have noticed in these past few days that I judge people who talk about technology. I judge people who aren't bothered by being asked to 'be the first to like' something on a website that is NOT facebook, but knows that you have a facebook. I don't like how "it" knows our location, and I don't like how people use this to their advantage in order to find directions or get somewhere. I don't like when I ask people to look things up on their phone. I hate when I want to watch maybe one or two youtube videos, but I'm with several people and it turns into an hour of them.

I dont like that I feel like I have to keep up. I don't like the idea of getting a "smart phone", and I wonder if I can just not.

I want to be lost somewhere anywhere. I want to use maps that I carry in my pocket. I want to have hour long conversations with people about things that I actually think are meaningful. I want to take walks. I want to read books instead of online articles (which are cheaper, so I hate that I like that) so that I'm not thinking about the screen flashing light and information at me.

Speaking of technology. Every Mondays from 6-7 my housemate Brittany Bieber and I are doing an environmental talk/music/poetry radio show called ORGANIC THOUGHT. And you can stream it live at wzbc.org or listen to it through archives up to two weeks after the show. WZBC Newton 90.3 And I'm really excited about that.

I have a lot of topics to address, not all of which are nearly as negative as this post-but this has been something that has been consuming my thoughts.

love.love.love.