maybe it's Greenland melting as we move in closer

Looking at the negative space between our necks,

I think it looks like Africa,

or South Ameria-

or maybe it's shaped like Sri Lanka,

maybe it's a tear drop falling from a cloud

maybe it's rain

maybe it's raining out

maybe I'm getting drenched right now right here with you

and all I can think about are foreign landmasses

bed is cursed

I can fall asleep anywhere but here-

on our couch with the lights on,

sitting on the cold floor shivering,

at my desk with the movie playing.

I can sleep in your bed with flat pillows,

during a meeting at the office,

on the subway with strangers looking,

in a sunny bed on campus.

I can fall asleep anywhere but here-

moments after fighting for consciousness,

I reach the comfort of my own bed,

only to toss and turn.

Coughing fits take me when I think I've won,

Silence overwhelms my imagination,

music is consistantly too loud-

hypotheticals hold me for hours,

tears run down my cheeks when I think I'm fine,

I pull in the covers when my body shivers,

I take off pjs when I'm overheating-

I set my phone on the sheets beside me

in case I need it as a last resort.

what am i dreaming about.

I feel you should wake up feeling either good, or neutral, and your day can take it from there. Now my problem is I have been waking up and been feeling negative, and then I have to about my day working to get out of the negative- and into the positive numbers. A few days ago, and at other times, I've woken up and felt a dream barely within my grasp... but then I can't recall what it is. And I'm left with this feeling that it was bad or that I should remember it. I felt extremely frustrated wondering what it had been, because I was convinced it was impacting my mood in the morning. I usually remember my dreams fairly well, but lately they're more of a feeling-and I can't recall anything about them. This sets my day off. This morning I woke up at ten, and even though that meant I slept an extra hour, I immediately felt angry for not having woken up in time for my ten o'clock class. Even though it's just finite&probability and people often skip that class.

No one cares.

Okay bad mood aside, I'm going to get dressed, make breakfast, and head out to my internship in the city.

Wait but really I'm in an extra terrible mood and extremely frustrated with myself. And it's frustrating that I have work right after my internship, so I won't be home until 11pm. And then I don't even want to come home.