Sunday, February 24, 2013

there are different kinds of death

Hannah says I'm going through a mourning period.
I get in my head very easily.

That is why I need to put on my ipod and dance while I make Mahi Mahi for lunch

Monday, February 11, 2013

Haikus

A couple weeks ago I decided, "I'm going to start writing haikus".

I wrote one that I only liked the first two lines of, and I haven't bothered to write another since.

Things are going pretty well except that I feel like I go from feeling fine to a mess pretty easily. It's very hard to live a balanced life! I can only pull it off for a couple days at the time. Lately I feel that I am easily irritated...and if I'm in a bad mood I'm not very good at being friendly. Of course I'm not saying we should pretend to be cheery if we are grumpy, but there is a way to be grumpy in a graceful way that doesn't leave you feeling like you're being rude to others around you.

So I took a bath for about an hour tonight. I think my next investment will be a bath pillow, because this has been a dream of mine the past two times I found myself in the bath. We had a professional development day a few weeks ago where we talked about self care and different forms of ritual. I appreciated that "bubble bath" made the list. To complete this ritual, I set candles around my bath tub (on the inner shelves and outside the tub boundaries) and plugged in my speakers to listen to music.

That was nice.

So I'm feeling a bit calmer now.

And I'll probably watch a movie before bed. I am starting to feel "too grown up" because I go to bed so much earlier than I did even six months ago.

Last night I watched a documentary that I was so into it made me wish I studied geology. It was called "They Mystery of the Megaflood" about the Scablands in Washington state. I was so into it! It just seemed like the most interesting story about landscape that I had ever had explained to me...

I have learned more in the past few months of my life than I have in the past few years.

Hope you're well world. Thinking of you.

love.love.love.