Trying Something New.

So my friend told me about his blog which he writes most every day. I know people blog, but I dont usually take the time to read them. Well I did, and I thought I'd try it.
I guess maybe this is unnecessary because i already write every day with a pen and paper. I also started another journal with letters addressed to people with things i want to say to them. So often i want to tell someone something, but dont. Not because Im too shy too, but because i know "its not allowed". So now i can do it, and i think that it may help me decide what i should be saying.

I have a lot of thoughts that run through my mind but when i speak them i hear that they're "random" and "interesting" but in a tone of voice like "why didnt you keep that to yourself?"
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I like sharing my thoughts, i like hearing other thoughts.
so HERE. Im going to do that. i believe in honesty.

im feeling weird lately. i guess certain events have gotten me down.
also, ive hung out with a lot of people this summer, but ive already been out of school one month (since may 31st) and i feel like summer is going to damn fast. that makes me depressed. it's almost half way done and then i spent another 9 months feeling depressed and lonely. i dont want that. i dont know what to do about it.
i love chilling with people and just talking, or not talking but being. but i want to start doing things.
im never home lately (it seems) and yet what AM i doing? working i guess. and thats important to me.
but all in all i think i like where my life is heading.
i know that there are some bad habits im starting, but im okay with that because i continue to believe if i know its happening then it makes it a little better.


today i hung out with a friend for breakfast. then met a friend i lost touch with (even though she was there the hold time) and talked to her. she was straight up and it was a nice change when i find myself surrounded by people who can't be REAL and HONEST.
in a few minutes ill go to a friends house for the night, and i know that'll be great.
there is so much i could say,
but then again there is so much i always want to say.

hi, nice to meet you. hi, nice to start this.


lovelovelove
Claudia.