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Basically, I want to cry right now and am doing all I can not to. I guess the root of this is that I was stoked to listen to my twenty or more records, but I need a new needle and since the turntable is old I'm having a hard time finding one. Also, my friend is moving to Kentucky tomorrow, and I feel like there are so many memories with him I missed out on. And then I'm just looking at myself and I feel like I'm not in the right mindset for anything right now.
Friday I'm in school. I still have three books to read. I got (almost exactly) the schedule I wanted. Wednesday I may be going to six flags. Today I'm going to see a friend and pretend that nothing happened.
A new and great friend goes to college Friday, and one of my two or three best friends goes to college next week. It makes me want to ask myself "what are you doing?".
I've been out a lot, staying out late, seeing people, and my parents don't like this, because I am gone so much. But I need to be. If I'm not then I feel like I'm wasting time.
I value friends so much (too much?) and want to see them while we can.
I'm trippin
this is one of those blogs i'd actually want people to read...
but i don't really want to advertise it all.
good.bye.