I get so frusrated when I feel like it isn't working
Frustrated if I ever feel like I'm making it about me
Makes me want to give up and shout
But that would be making it about me
and I can't stop trying.
(Right now I want to. it's not about me it's not about me it's not about me. it's absolutely everyone)
even a post seems conceited! this is ridiculous.
(i hope i fall alseep now)
4 comments:
you matter too. don't lose sight of that.
i do hope it gets less frustrating the more you practice stepping outside yourself.
I think everything is about us. Especially when you're young. One day it won't be anymore. Why not enjoy it while it is? I don't think there is anything wrong with that.
Resisting experiencing a moment fully I think causes more suffering than any feared repercussions about vanity. I'm not sure if I'm wording that right.
I think if you experience a moment(s) fully, even if it is about yourself, you allow things to flow more smoothly and then continue on to be about whatever it is going to be about...? One moment it's about you, the next it's about someone else. Enjoying both equally is important to be able to enjoy anything at all.
I think this situation is also borne out of the fear of not having it be about you enough. Deep down, you want more attention, but feel guilty and embarrassed (because you're fundamentally a good person) that you may not be sharing the spotlight enough with others.
I think this concern is wonderful because it helps keep you a balanced person, but if you need something, don't be afraid to ask for it.
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