This is a Soul Song.

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THE WORLD AT LARGE by MODEST MOUSE.

Ice-age heat wave, can't complain.
If the world's at large, why should I remain?
Walked away to another plan.
Gonna find another place, maybe one I can stand.
I move on to another day, to a whole new town with a whole new way.
Went to the porch to have a thought-
Got to the door and again, I couldn't stop.
You don't know where and you don't know when.
But you still got your words and you got your friends.
Walk along to another day.
Work a little harder, work another way.

Well uh-uh baby I ain't got no plan.
We'll float on maybe would you understand?
Gonna float on maybe would you understand?
Well I'll float on maybe would you understand?

The days get shorter and the nights get cold.
I like the autumn but this place is getting old.
I pack up my belongings and I head for the coast.
It might not be a lot but I feel like I'm making the most.
The day's get longer and the nights smell green.
I guess it's not surprising but it's spring and I should leave.

I like songs about drifters - books about the same.
They both seem to make me feel a little less insane.
Walked on off to another spot.
I still haven't got anywhere that I want.
Did I want love? Did I need to know?
Why does it always feel like I'm caught in an undertow?

The moths beat themselves to death against the lights.
Adding their breeze to the summer nights.
Outside, water like air was great.
I didn't know what I had that day.
Walk a little farther to another plan.
You said that you did, but you didn't understand.

I know that starting over is not what life's all about.
But my thoughts were so loud, I couldn't hear my mouth.
My thoughts were so loud, I couldn't hear my mouth.
My thoughts were so loud.

So it's Christmas break and I'm home for another two weeks. Most of my close friends are starting classes again tomorrow or Tuesday, thus people are leaving...which is hard to wrap my mind around. I really haven't been home very long but people have these different schedules and it makes it tough. I don't think I've ever been home and been so glad to have my friends here. They really are fantastic. I feel that a lot of people have grown apart from highschool friends and aren't close to them anymore-but these aren't my highschool friends, these are my life friends. And growing apart from them sounds like a terrible idea. I've been away at college for a year and a half now, and it's a struggle to figure out who is even close in connection to some of the kids here. 

I'm not really stoked on going back yet, but lucky for me I dont have to (yet)! Also-2010...I've been conscious for a whole decade and alive for two. It's a nice feeling even though my dad didn't seem to think it was too strange. I think that's because he's gotten used to it already. So speaking of: resolutions:

-Only plan when necessary.

-Be more genioune than people think possible.

WE ARE LITTLE ADULTS.

Take from it what you will.