Acting On Beliefs

So I thought I'd write before I go to my friend's fourth of july party in about an hour.
Alarm goes off at 1030. turn it off and call a friend before she goes to work. Then resume sleeping. at 1130 my dad shouts down that we should go to breakfast and to wake up. I mumble something, and resume sleeping. At 12 he yells "are you up?" and i say yes. At1230 he realizes im still sleeping, and i get out of bed and go to lunch. haha. i cant remember the last time i slept in that much.
Filling out scholarships forms i can tell my dad is just as confused. At one point he says "I need to go clean out my car" and leaves for a good ten minutes. I thought he'd just driven away to avoid the situation. haha.
So I'm facing a problem I keep coming back to. And its me being a hypocrit. More specifically, concerning what I believe in in terms of our environment and fellow animals. In May I decided to no longer eat beef because I dont believe in the way workers are treated. But there are some local places that treat workers just fine, and those I would be okay supporting. Since May I have eaten beef maybe 5 or 6 times. Here is why:
I dont know where the beef is coming from. Once when I asked in a restaurant and they laughed at me. So what can I do? I've read about the way animals and workers are treated, and it makes me want to not eat any meat. But I dont trust myself to say "im now a vegetarian" because i know i'll just eat meat in a few days. And the thing is that ISNT enough. I'd have to be a vegan. Because animals are treated badly.
It just gets so confusing to me. I'll eat meat and such if i know where its coming from, but when i'm eating out how can i know? I can't just ask the waiter where they get their meat because he/she won't know. So I just don't know what to do. I don't want to support corporations that have bad policies, and I will support corporations that make an effort to be moral.
It just kills me.
I have all these beliefs about the environment and I dont act on them. And part of me doesnt because I just don't know how to.
Anyways.
For the most part that's what's on my mind right now.
lovelovelove
claudia