lock-myself-in-my-room-kind-of-mood.

So I'm not in a great mood (because I'm weird like that).
I called my friend and said "do you want to come over and make me food" and she said "you want me to come make you food?". I offered my help...
So I'm starting to apply for scholarships and I hate it. Especially when there are hidden motives like "thank you for spending an hour writing an essay, now if you pay us money we'll put you in the drawing for one of our scholarships!". fuck you man, fuck you. I just get stressed easily and try to avoid stress when I can...
I'm currently annoyed with my father. I don't want to get into it but basically I just think he's being ridiculous and in turn he thinks I'm being ridiculous.
What a vague explanation hu? go me.
It's not sunnny out over here, but I guess that's fine by me. I really should eat something because I havent had breakfast (or lunch) yet. I'll probably end up making mac n' cheese.
I suddenly don't feel like socializing much. I know tonight and tomorrow night I'm invited to these sleepover/parties but I'm in this mood right now where I kind of want to just lock myself up in my room. and sleep? listen to music?
I don't even understand myself and I expect others to?
I think I just feel overwhelmed...
lovelovelove(still)
Claudia
p.s. today in one of the drawers of my desk i found this watercolor set with the number three and i randomly remembered that in fifth grade i had somehow taken it home (did i do this on purpose?) and i never turned it in, even if it was part of the class set. I used it today. I also got really annoyed at my house (yup, the house) because I couldnt find a set of colored pencils OR crayons. And if people placed bets on which of our houses were to have that, you'd think it would be mine. I almost went to go buy some, but then (like i said) i was in a lock myself in my room kind of mood.
go.me.