Redhead in Bed

I'm not even sure how it is that I've been so busy lately. I haven't even been writing in the journal by my bed every night. It's pretty sad.
But things have been good...what HAVE i been doing?
Bought Harry Potter... and i guess im not too cool because i havent finished yet. I'm only in the 200's. Watched the saddle creek documentary again (which caused me to buy the album "lullaby for the working class"). Went to a friend's birthday party at the beach....um....
hmm.
I've just been hanging out with people. Chillin at houses, driving to Sunshine, watching scrubs...but really good memories.
So i go through times where my self confidence falters, or i worry about how i act with other people, with them liking me, or if i'll be boring, annoying... And I've been doing okay with that lately. I was just thinking about it today...and how not really trying to be anyone, and just being, observing, giving imput
has really been good.
I just feel good lately
excited.
I smell like a
redhead in bed
: )
went to the renaissance fair today. yup.
As you may/may not know, i have this intense paranoia when going to sleep, and it's gotten really bad lately. When I make my way down to my room, i have to turn on/off different lights, and it freaks me out whenever it's dark for a second. and i get to thinking. i never feel safe until the curtains are closed in my room, light on, door closed. This will sound like im being an attention whore (but since no one reads this then i really am not), but the other night i was convinced i was going to die and was debating calling my friend at 2am to leave the house and have him meet me. I didnt know what to do...
okay
way to turn this entry into a downer.
er.
but im HAPPY lately : )
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