Well I got into Santa Cruz. I still have no idea where I'm going next year, but it is still nice to know I got in there. I haven't slept too much this weekend. Both friday and saturday have involved me going to bed at 3am or later. The weekend has been good, a lot of laughs.
I'm feeling alright lately. It's crazy to think that in two weeks I'll have heard back from all these colleges and will be deciding where I'll be the next four years. It's very up in the air right now. I also feel a bit confused about what it is I want. Not just with college, but with life. What am I looking for? What impression am I trying to give? I'm kind of just letting whatever happen, without forcing anything...and I guess that is working okay. I feel like I'm running out of time. Last night as I drove up to Paso I was thinking about how I want to do all these things in the next few months, because I won't be able to later. I want to get all this stuff done, now. I'm constantly meeting new people (which is a good thing) but friday night I was talking to a friend about how sometimes we feel we don't have time to meet NEW people because our time with the old friends is so limited. And I wonder to myself "should i be meeting all these new people?". Yeah, yeah I guess so. Just because that's what I do. Next year things will be very different. Best friends will stay best or good friends. Friends may become acquaintances. Acquaintances may disappear. This post is getting to be a downer, and it shouldn't be.
Maybe I'll cook myself some lunch now...then I'll finish up kite runner. . .
lovelovelove
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