I always have tons of things I want to say, but when I sit down to right them I have trouble recalling it all. Basically...i just feel really anxious and can't focus. Everything reminds me of the same thing, i dont have much of an appetite, and i'm worried. Do you ever wonder what will happen if nothing works out? It's a concern... But let's talk about why people want to be alive:
Maybe one thing is the sunset that we drive by on the way home, over the bay. The gorgeous colors and amazing clouds. Or the music (even if right now it's all telling me the same thing, and all causing me to keep thinking of what we're all trying to deal with). Friends. Because as much as you may think you're alone, they are there and they do care.
I know these next few weeks are going to be hard to focus, especially with college stuff on top. But really things are going to be so much better with tennis over. Yesterday I was exhausted, fell asleep on the drive home, walked through the garage to my room, put on my pjs and crawled in bed. I fell asleep to the new pornographers and woke up on track six of a marvelous mix my friend made me, two hours later. Initially I was confused, had i only been sleeping for six songs? No, i'd slept through a whole cd. It felt amazing.
I need things like this.
Life is hard. There are things that people try and deal with, and you have no idea. Don't always think you KNOW how the other person feels, but do try and work through things together and talk about something.
I just ate a piece of pizza...um. didn't really want to.
Now I am to watch movies with friends. I guess I need that?
I love you all. I can love you even if I've only known you a few months, trust me.
<3
lovelovelove.
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2 comments:
the title makes me think of laura :))
and fyi: he's really lucky you're his friend.
and i'm lucky to be your friend :)
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