What If You Never Feel Again?

Listening to Streetlight Manifesto, as instructed by Sean.

Yesterday was pretty alright. I went to waffle night with my friend because i hadn't seen him in a few days. It was cool because there was a large group of people there who I hadn't seen in a while...and though every week I was invited to go to waffle night, this was the first time I'd been able to go in maybe two months. So that was nice.

Now on to Of Montreal.

Today was just kinda blah. I mean to say that I feel like nothing really positive happened. I did, however, play ping pong in the chemistry room during theology 4 class with two friends. So that was pretty sweet because I think people forget she has a ping pong table in the back room. Other than that though, the day was just really lame. And I just feel pretty nothing right now. I dont really want to complain about random shit because the theme in my life right now is that there are so many things worse.

My parents watched Sicko tonight. I saw it over the summer, and sat down to watch the last 45 minutes. I thought I heard my dad sniffling, and i cant recall anytime i've ever seen my dad cry. Which is weird to me. Also reading Brave New World, and it makes me feel like the future is just bad. I know I'll try and make society better, but I can't help to feel as though it's doomed. Because this country is just too selfish and blind. And aren't we going to end up like a 1984 or Brave New World society? Where everything is controlled? I dont know how it will work any other way and it depresses me.
I just feel really exhausted today.
Stupid paper today in physics, didn't catch on fire like it was supposed to.


"I chose to feel it and you couldnt choose"

I'm only four sections behind in calculus.
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