What a Lovely Start to the Day (Yesterday)

I forgot to mention the best part of my day yesterday:
I love Nathan. I was sleeping and I can vaguely remember him coming in my room and giving me a little hug as he left in the morning and I slept. I remember waking briefly to smile and hug back as i lay wrapped under the covers.

Anything after that memory is insignificant now:
Well I had Chai this morning before school. School itself was pretty boring, everyone was tired and none of the teachers seem to know what to do with the awkward two days before our five day break. All of my classes are relatively okay, with the exception of calculus. It's frustrating because yes I can ask questions to peers or whoever, but they understand it...and when they try and explain the basic concepts i have absolutely no idea what they're talking about. To be honest, it makes me want to cry. Which makes me sound like a baby, yes I am aware. I just really don't understand and I feel like I need all this time that doesn't exist.
Tennis today was fine, but I was tired, and lazy. I really should have put more effort into it.
Had pasta tonight, I feel like that's all I eat and it makes me sick now.
Did a lot-ish of catching up in Calculus. Of couse, I'll still fail the test tomorrow. I told my mom that I dont know why i'm in this class and she said "I asked you last year if you wanted to take it and you said yes." To which I replied, "yeah well, i'm also an idiot [and shouldn't have said that]". So now she wants to set up a conference with the teacher, which in my humble opinion will do no good because I know I will hear nothing I don't already know.
Also I felt worried about people all day.
And then I also felt confused/frustrated by people who don't know how to explain themselves or express their true opinion of you. Always frustrating.

But tomorrow is basically friday. And after my test then life will be okay again, because it was before, and eventually I think it will be.
youwill.you?will.you?will.you?will. (return to me)
there are some ups.
!
goodnight
lovelovelove(!)